[For the world to be destroyed so everyone can go home Something about it makes him annoyed. Human beings think so small yet have no notion of the consequences of their actions. They just exist, and expect people to take care of them.
And it infected Aziraphale and Crowley, this sense of ...hope and wonder and faith. It's own sort of different faith from his own in Her. Not blind faith in a single being but in an ideal and bless it-
His face twists into something like annoyance before he closes his eyes and breathes deep. The hug was nice. Anathema was a nice person. You...did nice things for nice people. His throat works and he presses his lips together.]
It took seven days to make your world. The most important one out of every world we built. We built a lot of worlds before yours, before humanity's - [frown. confusion.] before earth. It was really hard to watch the ice caps melt, the trash and pollution stack to the ceiling, the oceans fill with your plastic and I let it slide because I knew the world has an expiration date.
[His laugh is hollow] besides we were guilty of things too. The flood? I didn't like that. Nobody ever gives me credit for it but I feel bad for the unicorns. Even the dragons. All things she made that we had to kill to teach humanity a lesson and it-
All worlds end. They're supposed to. The creators of all the universes know that every story ends. But you're all out there saying no it shouldn't - and yes.
Yes it was like fighting beside my brothers.
[He has only ever felt that will before. That no, I will do as I will do will. It's his mother's will. This radical idea that things can and should continue. To go against the plan, to say no.
He has never had the luxury, only it turns out he did and does and...and...
What to say. Staring at her, he focuses wholly on her with those inhuman purple eyes.]
...I can't say I'm sorry. For my vote here or for what I did. I can say...I think I can say "I'm sorry for not understanding and thinking less of humanity before all of this."
[He snorts.] Honestly I wouldn't be fucking surprised if you all figured out how to prolong the planet's lifespan. Cleaned up the oceans and the trash and my trees and maybe somehow found a way to fix the hole in the ozone layer.
[Wholly leaving out that theoretically, if Heaven were so inclined. Maybe. Possibly with their infinite power. They could help.
But now he is looking at her profoundly worried because - oh god. What if he said the wrong thing. And now they are not friends.]
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And it infected Aziraphale and Crowley, this sense of ...hope and wonder and faith. It's own sort of different faith from his own in Her. Not blind faith in a single being but in an ideal and bless it-
His face twists into something like annoyance before he closes his eyes and breathes deep. The hug was nice. Anathema was a nice person. You...did nice things for nice people. His throat works and he presses his lips together.]
It took seven days to make your world. The most important one out of every world we built. We built a lot of worlds before yours, before humanity's - [frown. confusion.] before earth. It was really hard to watch the ice caps melt, the trash and pollution stack to the ceiling, the oceans fill with your plastic and I let it slide because I knew the world has an expiration date.
[His laugh is hollow] besides we were guilty of things too. The flood? I didn't like that. Nobody ever gives me credit for it but I feel bad for the unicorns. Even the dragons. All things she made that we had to kill to teach humanity a lesson and it-
All worlds end. They're supposed to. The creators of all the universes know that every story ends. But you're all out there saying no it shouldn't - and yes.
Yes it was like fighting beside my brothers.
[He has only ever felt that will before. That no, I will do as I will do will. It's his mother's will. This radical idea that things can and should continue. To go against the plan, to say no.
He has never had the luxury, only it turns out he did and does and...and...
What to say. Staring at her, he focuses wholly on her with those inhuman purple eyes.]
...I can't say I'm sorry. For my vote here or for what I did. I can say...I think I can say "I'm sorry for not understanding and thinking less of humanity before all of this."
[He snorts.] Honestly I wouldn't be fucking surprised if you all figured out how to prolong the planet's lifespan. Cleaned up the oceans and the trash and my trees and maybe somehow found a way to fix the hole in the ozone layer.
[Wholly leaving out that theoretically, if Heaven were so inclined. Maybe. Possibly with their infinite power. They could help.
But now he is looking at her profoundly worried because - oh god. What if he said the wrong thing. And now they are not friends.]